Updated: Oct 4
“Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.”
I started writing my story while sitting under a mosquito net in China. It seemed like God was prompting me to do that. Two years later I finally put all the scribbly notes onto my iPad at a guest house in Haifa, Israel. It took several years for God to prepare my heart to write this story. I could not have written it sooner. It is written from a place of forgiveness, healing, wholeness and freedom.
Following God has been an incredible adventure. All glory and honor and praise to Him, now and forever. I wrote A Life Set Free, a true story about the love and faithfulness of God.
I had a desperately lonely childhood I felt abandoned, rejected, unloved. Years living in other people’s homes convinced me I was the outsider not belonging ~ so alone. It sounds crazy but I am thankful. I praise God because He used my life to give me a greater heart of compassion for others.
As a 21-year-old university student I was disillusioned with life. I felt like there was a black, empty, hollow space growing inside me. The emptiness darkness and hopelessness of my life overwhelmed me. I decided I had nothing to live for. It seemed suicide was better than living.
I contemplated jumping out of a window on the 18th floor of an apartment building.
While looking at that window, deciding what to do, I had a vision. I don’t know what else to call it. It was so strange this is hard to explain. It had been a cloudless day but now thick clouds seemed to appear just outside the window obscuring everything. I knew they weren’t really there, yet I could see them. I could see through the clouds and I saw a throne. I could not see His face but I knew the One seated on that throne was Jesus. I knew He was crying for me because of the pain, sadness, and brokenness of my life.
He spoke ~ not with words I could hear ~ but with words that resonated inside me. “Rena, This is not My plan for your life. If you turn your life over to Me I will bring more beauty out of your life than you could possibly imagine at this moment.”
Then, incredibly ~ in a split second ~I saw my entire life. It was kind of like seeing a high speed video. It was too fast to see details, but I had the impression that it was an amazing, incredible, beautiful life. Obviously, I chose to live. This next part, the unveiling of the “video”, was a process.
I began searching for God ~ Everywhere. He seemed to be hiding. I couldn’t find Him. Finally, thankfully, there was a random invitation to an obscure prayer meeting and I found Him!!! I was broken-hearted that I had grieved Him. I repented of my sins and asked Jesus to be my Lord and Saviour. Because of His grace and mercy I was forgiven. I became a child of God, adopted into His beautiful, forever family. No longer alone. Such amazing love.
If I had died that day I would have missed out on so much God wanted to do in my life and throughout eternity. So my story is one of miracles and God’s amazing grace in my life. He saw a sad, lonely girl and In His great love and compassion, God pulled me out of darkness into His amazing light.
He has given me a hope and a future, a beautiful life. The law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus set me free from the law of sin and death. I found Him. Yet, I am seeking Him still... Please trust Him today. He loves you. Blessings, Beloved of God.
A Life Set Free is available at A Life Set Free (free try of the audible book) https://www.amazon.ca/Life-Set-Free-story-faithfulness/dp/1092493484