Updated: Jul 18
“Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.”
I started writing my story while sitting under a mosquito net in China. Two years later I finally put all the scribbly notes onto my iPad at a guest house in Haifa, Israel. It took several years for God to prepare my heart to write this story. I could not have written it sooner. It is written from a place of forgiveness, healing, wholeness and freedom.
Following God has been an incredible adventure. All glory and honor and praise to Him, now and forever. This is a true story about the love and faithfulness of God. My book is the story of a life set free.
I had a desperately lonely childhood I felt abandoned, rejected, unloved. Years living in other people’s homes convinced me I was the outsider not belonging ~ so alone. It sounds crazy but I am thankful. I praise God because He used everything to give me a greater heart of compassion for others.
As a 21-year-old university student I was disillusioned with life. I felt like there was a black, empty, hollow space growing inside me. The emptiness darkness and hopelessness of my life overwhelmed me. I decided I had nothing to live for. It seemed suicide was better than living.
I contemplated jumping out of a window on the 18th floor of an apartment building.
While looking at that window deciding what to do I had a vision. I don’t know what else to call it. It was so strange this is hard to explain. It had been a cloudless day but now thick clouds seemed to appear just outside the window obscuring everything. I knew they weren’t really there Yet I could see them. I could see through the clouds and I saw a throne. I could not see His face but I knew the One seated on that throne was Jesus. I knew He was crying for me because of the pain and sadness and brokenness of my life.
He spoke ~ not with words I could hear ~ but with words that resonated inside me. “Rena, This is not My plan for your life. If you turn your life over to Me I will bring more beauty out of your life than you could possibly imagine at this moment.”
Then, incredibly ~ in a split second ~I saw my entire life. It was kind of like seeing a high speed video. It was too fast to see details yet I had the impression that it was an amazing, incredible, beautiful life. Obviously, I chose to live. This next part, the unveiling of the “video”, was a process.
I began searching for God ~ Everywhere. He seemed to be hiding. I couldn’t find Him. Finally, thankfully, there was a random invitation to an obscure prayer meeting and I found Him!!! I was broken-hearted that I had grieved Him. I repented of my sins and asked Jesus to be my Lord and Saviour. Because of His grace and mercy I was forgiven. I became a child of God. I was adopted into His beautiful, forever family. No longer alone. Such amazing love.
If I had died that day I would have missed out on so much God wanted to do in my life and throughout eternity. This is the story of God’s amazing grace in my life. He saw a sad, lonely girl and In His great love and compassion God pulled me out of darkness into His amazing light.
He has given me a hope and a future, a beautiful life. The law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus set me free from the law of sin and death. I found Him. Yet, I am seeking Him still... Please trust Him today. He loves you. Blessings, Beloved.
A Life Set Free is available at A Life Set Free (free try of the audible book)