Updated: May 3
“Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.”
I started writing my story while sitting under a mosquito net in China. Two years later I finally put all the scribbly notes onto my iPad at a guest house in Haifa, Israel. It took several years for God to prepare my heart to write this story. I could not have written it sooner. It is written from a place of forgiveness, healing, wholeness and freedom.
Following God has been an incredible adventure. All glory and honor and praise to Him, now and forever. This is a true story about the love and faithfulness of God.
This is the story of a life set free.
I had a desperately lonely childhood I felt abandoned, rejected, unloved.
Years living in other people’s homes convinced me I was the outsider not belonging
It sounds crazy but I am thankful
I praise God because He used everything to give me a greater heart of compassion for others
as a 21-year-old university student I was disillusioned with life
I felt like there was a black, empty, hollow space
growing inside me
The emptiness darkness and hopelessness of my life overwhelmed me.
I decided I had nothing to live for It seemed suicide was better than living
I contemplated jumping out of a window
on the 18th floor of an apartment building
While looking at that window deciding what to do I had a vision I don’t know what else to call it
It was so strange
this is hard to explain...
It had been a cloudless day but now thick clouds seemed to appear
Just outside the window obscuring everything I knew they weren’t really there Yet I could see them
I could see through the clouds
and I saw a throne
I could not see His face
but I knew the One
seated on that throne
I knew He was crying for me because of the pain and sadness
and brokenness of my life
He spoke not with words I could hear
but with words that resonated inside me
“Rena, This is not My plan for your life. If you turn your life over to Me I will bring more beauty out of your life
than you could possibly imagine at this moment.”
incredibly In a split second
I saw my entire life
It was kind of like seeing a high speed video
It was too fast to see details Yet I had the impression that it was
an amazing, incredible, beautiful life
Obviously... I chose to live
This next part the unveiling of the “video”
was a process
I began searching for God
He seemed to be hiding
I couldn’t find Him
there was a random invitation
to an obscure prayer meeting
and I found Him!!! I was broken-hearted that I had grieved Him
I repented of my sins and asked Jesus to be my Lord and Saviour
Because of His grace and mercy I was forgiven
I became a child of God
Adopted into His beautiful
No longer alone
Such amazing love
If I had died that day I would have missed Out on so much He wanted to do in my life and throughout eternity.
This is the story of God’s amazing grace in my life.
He saw a sad, lonely girl
In His great love and compassion
God pulled me out of darkness into His amazing light.
He has given me a hope and a future
A beautiful life
The law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus
set me free from the law of sin and death.
I found Him Yet I am seeking Him still...
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